Mom! Pleeeease I don't want to live in hostel T.+

Last semester, I begged not to live in hostel, and here I am, still in hostel. How cool is that! I begged too in this sem, she said I'd be in front of lappy if she approves. I just wanna strike to show how much I don't like it here. Plus, distance between my class and home isn't so far away. Even wanna go nearby Carrefour is more far! Next semester I'm sooooo gonna beg my dad x[

Oh mom oh mom! I don't like it here.... >.>

I have to hold my pee every night coz the toilet is wayyy at the end of block, and soo creepy.
--> at home, my toilet is in my bedroom. My very own toilet! (except the parts when my sis broke the mirror in my toilet and an aunt broke the head of shower and my cousin broke the toilet door T.T)
Here, even the makcik2 clean the toilet EVERY morning still BAUUUUUUU!~~ How the students pee that it can smell so damn sharp?? @@

No peace here!
My head keeps thinking "How much my breakfast, lunch, dinner and supper will cost..?" "How much will the balance for today..?" "Will my coins enough to pay the washing machine..?" "Will I be able to wake up by my own tomorrow?" lagi.... so many ar.. x.x

Even there are compartments for each students in one room, still got no privacy. Even next roomate farts so slow also can hear HAHAHA. I mean it! While the compartments just divided by our lockers~ no door no lock~ So while wearing a bra be sure you're facing to the wall~ (in case your friend suddenly ambushes to your compartment la) nuff said :x

Though got internet here, but soooo damn slow meh! Prefer got no internet at all! hahah no no i take back my words :p Plus my uni's wifi blocks online game! soooooooo kanasai. Buy me broadband dad x[ He did though but my bro took it waaaaaaa~

I don't like it when people watch what I do on my lappy. Plus they look with full of enthusiasm wth. And I often ended up with letting them use my lappy coz they looked like as if they are so desperate. O_o But also here got aloooot mooovies that we can tukar2 together2 HAHAHA so nice

I feel so weird why people always wanna be accompanied while they're eating. If to go toilet at 2-4 am that can be accepted la. But this ... hmm. And when I do eat alone (I usually do though), my friends will ask, "Oh why you're alone? So kesian...". What the heckkk. I mean really -.- so annoying I LIKE BEING ALONE WHILE EATING so what's wrong with that??

I wanna home mom.. :[

What thing that stresses me out in the hellish way?

Family.

Everything are so blank. I skipped all classes today. No worries. No one cares bout me coming or not. My dad busy with his new wife, my mom busy reflecting how miserable she is being left by dad, my sisters with their husbands, my brothers with their works, my younger sister is busy flirting with boys.

Since my family moved to Kuala Lumpur, my family has been falling apart. We argued alot, misunderstood on small things, and brutal actions over taken by our normal consciousness. People might say that this is normal things that happen in every families. But no. This started to happen with the existence of the third person who came to my dad's life, my stepmother. Even I hate it to mention she's my stepmother coz I would never admit she is, instead I'd call her 'bitch'.

Today my mother woke me up, with fierce voice after one called out of me. It was very different with how she treated me before. She was very caring in whatever she did, for family. Her cooks were terrific that every family members would miss it and drool whenever think bout it but now I see sadness on her face while she cooks. She made jokes whenever we were in car going somewhere, but now silence filling the car. Everyone go with their own minds thinking what to do in their workplaces, meetings, assignments, etc but none cares bout how to tighten the family bonds that are loosening days by days. Even when there's conversation, it would be less than 10 words.

I don't want to mention more, it's personal thing actually that just close friends know bout further details. But what really matters that things happen in my family would come first from any other things that happen. If you say study, I never want to go to school. LOL. When I was in Standard 1, I was known by the one who held-tight-the-school's-main-gate-and-begged-to-be-brought-home-kid. Every teachers and students would gather and be the audience of the drama that would be me as the main role. Even now, in campus life, I always beg my mom to stop this study. She would say, " Go marry instead." Hell no. At least not now. I have to get all my minds fixed first before taking this step. Plus with what I've been through, getting closer with men would be the first thing I would avoid.

It hurts alot to reminisce of these things even though it happened in short time. If can, I would like to bring my family and time back to where we were, in Sabah. That was the happiest lifetime I've had. Although my dad's job needs him to go outstation a lot but he remembered his family and would bring home presents to mom, and us. But now it's next to zero that he would bring any coz all the things, that bitch would filter and bring to her house instead. Aah.. what really happens sure much much vicious to be mentioned. And that, I should remained silent to myself only. The last thing I wanna say, that bitch is so baka!!!!

P/S: Stay out of someone else's husband!

Stupid policeman wtf..

This happened yesterday for the time I wrote this post

Well.. I got two summons from this fucking idiot snobbish policeman

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WHY??

Coz I got into accident last week

Never mind bout the accident, I'll tell later way below this post..


What I'm going to tell bout is~

At first I only got 1 summon, for late report, coz the accident happened last week

Well, it was at first we planned to share 50-50 to repair the motorcycle that I got into accident with.. so we both agree

Then, later he asked for RM5k?!?! WTF
Can't blame him also.. coz it's an old super-bike, hard to find the spare part -.-

Then we went to the police station la .. yesterday

So the investigation process went on,

My mom was beside me also in the office
Then he said my mom talked too much and said to get out from his office

Of course la, without opposing, my mom went out

But he didn't stop but talking bad things bout my mom -.-

He said like: "Your mom wasn't even there, then your mom talked like she knows it all. So sibuk (means busybody) la your mom".

WTF?! my mom already went out so STOP TALKING BOUT MY MOM and proceed you SNOB
Of course la, no mother wants to lepas tangan or do nothing if their kids got blamed at for any wrong doings and also, WHO LIKES PEOPLE SAYING BAD THINGS TO THEIR MOMS?

WTF, you think you're at high position you can say whatever you want??

The whole investigation seemed useless coz he never wanted to listen carefully my explanation,

Whenever I explained, he cut my story -.-

Well,
If you wonder what happened.. here is the story

Last week on Wednesday, I went out to send this gift that my girlfriends and I planned to give a surprise to this one gf.. so everyone had to pass on and write something in the gift .. so my turn finished so I went to pass the gift to my other friend where the home not so far, except had to cross the main road which always busy..

I already got onto the main road, and I stopped on the red light.. then when it was GREEN (my sister also saw GREEN!), after seeing the cars on the opposite side all stopped so I drove my car away, to turn to the right. Suddenly this motorcycle came from nowhere (he had his motorcycle drove fast) . I managed to stopped and but both of him and I didn't manage to dodge so hit a lil and he fell..

Here's his explanation: He said his light was also GREEN and I was the one who broke the light..
(He also thought I don't have car license coz my voice is like a kid wth)

WTF.. the main road was so busy that none can manage to cross without the light is red! I was sure that the opposite cars all already STOPPED that I managed to drove my car to cross, well almost!, until the motorcycle came from nowhere and hit my car -.-

So while being investigated,

He made his conclusion,

That I was the one who's wrong

He said:

"Don't follow the traffic light, even it's green you have to make way to the opposite cars/motors. Imagine if it's thundering there and the traffic lights are broken, you have to make way also."

WTF?? DON'T FOLLOW THE TRAFFIC LIGHT??

So I said the hell that time didn't even thundering and the light was normal!

So we went through some conversation,

Late already kinda 7.30 pm

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And for the last, he still made me the one who's wrong.. sheeeet of paper

After writing his report (I had no idea what he typed, he could also twist the real story)

He asked me, "What else you want to say?"

I still said my light was green that's why I drove away and the cars all stopped, but then that motorcycle the one who suddenly came from nowhere coz driven fast and hit my car

Then the policeman said I talked too much,

and,

GAVE ME ANOTHER SUMMON!!!

What a freaking beggar -.-

He gave me another summon just to shut me up and because he had no idea to talk back my statements

WTF so lepas tangan?? I knew you wanted to go back home fast coz it was like 7.30pm but wth give me another summon???? Coz I talked too much??

Deymit.

That's the end of story -.-

Oh wait, before I went out from his office,

I shouted , 'So you gave me another summons because you couldn't talk back?? Thanks for nothing!"

Unfortunately he said to repeat coz he couldn't catch what I said. Darn -.-

Then I just walked out home.. with the two summons.

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What you guys think? Is this a reasonable action that the policeman gave me ?

I'm still mad tho T3T
Who don't? Burn RM700 already to pay this summons.. wth